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Helix – the electro/synthpop project of vocalist Mari Kattman and Assemblage 23’s Tom Shear – have announced the release of a new charity single. Due for release on February 3, “For Bill” is appropriately titled for a friend of the band’s who had passed away; with all proceeds to go to Bill’s surviving family, the single will be a $1.00 Bandcamp exclusive, with the option to pay more to help support Bill’s wife and daughters Avery (3) and Lilah (5). Mari Kattman delivers the following statement in honor of her departed friend:

 

This is a song for Bill.

Bill was the first person in my life to truly believe in me and my skill as a musician, he was one of my first band mates. We played together side-by-side onstage when only church basements would book us because we were only 15. He was an excellent bassist, electric to watch, even as a kid. However, Bill held a lot of sadness and he did this behind a big bright laugh and smiling bright blue eyes. He didn’t want to talk about those types of things ever, but he truly was a kid with the world on his shoulders.

We lost touch as we grew older and each went our separate ways. However, last October 2022, out of the blue, Bill surprised me and came to see me perform. I cried when I saw him. Here was my past, here was 15, here was that spark that started it all. I hugged him over and over and told him how much it meant to me that he could have come to see. I told him all of the wonderful journeys music has taken me on, how grateful I was for his belief in me all those years ago, that I even met my handsome, talented, amazing husband due to the fact that I never gave up on my dreams. He smiled so big, that smile I always knew and loved, and told me how proud he was of me. That meant everything to me to hear that. I walked away from that evening at a loss for words of how lucky I was to see my old friend again.

A month later, I read the crushing news that Bill had died and it felt like the wind was knocked out of me. Bill had taken his own life. You know I ran our conversations over and over in my mind. I should have known, I should have reached out more. So many questions you are left with after that. It’s such a dark, confusing place to be in and will always be.

So, here is the song for Bill. In my grief, this is what I wanted to say and I hope maybe you can connect with it and appreciate for what it is.

– Mari Kattman, January 2023

 

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